My Search for ‘Why’ And The Reason I Should Stop It
Every question in life doesn’t have an answer.
Coming to terms with this is not easy though.
As humans, we want explanations and answers. Why did this happen? Why did that happen?
We want to know the why and the how.
Once again, I found myself on Google today. What was I searching for?
I was googling a loved one’s symptoms and diagnosis—something which I have done a lot in the past months. However, digging for answers every other day doesn’t make the change or the heartbreak any easier.
It’s a reality I have to live through regardless of the whys.
I know this.
Yet, I am drawn to the rabbit hole of information. Sometimes of my own accord. Other times, I’ll read something that will push me towards it.
Does it help?
I am not sure. Perhaps, the initial set of information did help. And now, the nitty-gritty details aren’t helping.
Where is the disorder stemming from? Biological factors? Environmental factors? Anything else? Do I have it?
At this point, does it matter? No.
